Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I am just so overwhelmed with life. I do not have time to sit here and write this blog post, but I needed a positive outlet to vent and release some built up stress because typing on here ALWAYS makes me feel better. It is 7:44pm and I am just flat out exhausted. I have so much stuff to do before I can just crawl into my warm cozy bed and drift off to sleep. I know I chose this path for myself, but I just didn't realize how demanding it was going to be. I am living life as a single mom and let me tell you it is crazy. Aaron is back in his final phase of the police academy and his schedule is so intense that I only see him on Friday evenings and Saturdays. We just seem to pass each other as he is walking out the door and I am walking in! All week he goes to work from 6:30am-1:30pm and then he has to drive to San Jose until 10:30pm. Monday, Wednesday, & Friday I work from 8am-3pm but just getting the kids up, dressed, & fed is a job in itself. Then Tuesday I am in school all day and Thursday I am in school from 8:00am until 10:00pm! Sooo incredibly psycho but I realize that there will be huge rewards for this crazy life we are living. I am so close to being done with school I can taste it. It is just hard to balance being a Mom, Wife, Student, employee, cook, housekeeper, nurse, friend, sister, etc! I am a woman of many roles and I am trying my best to live up to each of my roles/responsibilities. I just need to focus and get organized, and possibly splurge on a housekeeper just to help me out with the "deep" cleaning that needs to be done around here! I am so thankful for my beautiful boys and even though they can drive me freakin NUTS and make me want to pull out all of my hair, they also remind me why life is so incredibly precious! They are my reasons for pushing through these struggles because I want to be a positive example to them. I want to show them that you have to work hard to get what you want in life. I want them to think I am a strong woman. Life is crazy and unpredictable and I won't let it stop me.
Posted by Brittany at 7:43 PM