Saturday, December 29, 2012

I'm back!

I have had a burning sensation to update my blog for such a long time but time has just not allowed it.  It has literally been just about a year since I have written anything.  School has been out for about 8 days and I am already freaking out about where my life is going.  I am still waiting on 3 teachers to post grades....go figure, they are the 3 classes that were the most difficult, and I truly have no clue if I will pass them.  The uncertainty is killing me.  I need to know if I am a college graduate, or if I am returning to good old San Francisco State next semester. Other than that, life has been crazy busy!  Christmas came and went and it honestly didn't feel like it was Christmas time.  2012 has been an insanely busy year for us, and I know the hubby and I are looking forward to life slowing down.  In 2013, I hope to refocus my attention on my family and my health.  I want to go back to being the Mom and wife who cooks every night, has play dates with my kiddos, and gets to have one on one dates with my hubby! With school out of the way, this should all be possible!!! Hope you all have a Happy New Year!!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012


I am just so overwhelmed with life. I do not have time to sit here and write this blog post, but I needed a positive outlet to vent and release some built up stress because typing on here ALWAYS makes me feel better. It is 7:44pm and I am just flat out exhausted. I have so much stuff to do before I can just crawl into my warm cozy bed and drift off to sleep. I know I chose this path for myself, but I just didn't realize how demanding it was going to be. I am living life as a single mom and let me tell you it is crazy. Aaron is back in his final phase of the police academy and his schedule is so intense that I only see him on Friday evenings and Saturdays. We just seem to pass each other as he is walking out the door and I am walking in! All week he goes to work from 6:30am-1:30pm and then he has to drive to San Jose until 10:30pm. Monday, Wednesday, & Friday I work from 8am-3pm but just getting the kids up, dressed, & fed is a job in itself. Then Tuesday I am in school all day and Thursday I am in school from 8:00am until 10:00pm! Sooo incredibly psycho but I realize that there will be huge rewards for this crazy life we are living. I am so close to being done with school I can taste it. It is just hard to balance being a Mom, Wife, Student, employee, cook, housekeeper, nurse, friend, sister, etc! I am a woman of many roles and I am trying my best to live up to each of my roles/responsibilities. I just need to focus and get organized, and possibly splurge on a housekeeper just to help me out with the "deep" cleaning that needs to be done around here! I am so thankful for my beautiful boys and even though they can drive me freakin NUTS and make me want to pull out all of my hair, they also remind me why life is so incredibly precious! They are my reasons for pushing through these struggles because I want to be a positive example to them. I want to show them that you have to work hard to get what you want in life. I want them to think I am a strong woman. Life is crazy and unpredictable and I won't let it stop me.