Monday, March 8, 2010

The good bits!

This morning at 4am my crazy 3 month old's decided to scream bloody murder. I got up, warmed up some bottles, hubby and I changed them and fed them, and thought they would quickly fall back asleep. But to our surprise, they wanted to stay up to laugh and talk to each other. They would look at each other and laugh like crazy. My hubby and I couldn't help but play too. Watching your kids laugh is the best feeling ever. When they finally fell asleep, I just stared at them. They are so innocent, so pure...I feel guilty for bringing them into this crazy misguided world we live in. I only hope I will have the tools to lead them the right way. But these are the moments that I feel I have it all!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Valley Children's Hospital

Well I have definitely been out of the loop lately. My son Dylan has been in the hospital for 4 days now. We are at Valley Children's Hospital in Madera, CA. I drove to Fresno on Saturday with the two boys and Sunday I decided to take Dylan in. He was diagnosed with Bronchiolitis and now has RSV. It is a viral infection that attacks the lungs. Being that he was premature and is only 3 months, this is a serious problem. I had never heard of RSV until we arrived here, and it seems to be the number one reason all of these poor sick kids are here! Usually they do not put two patients in the same room at this hospital, but since this RSV epidemic, RSV patients are sharing rooms. I am so nervous about my other twin, Brayden. He has begun coughing and is wheezing. I pray that he doesn't get this because he was the one who had serious breathing problems when he was born. Seeing Dylan in the hospital breaks my heart. I love my boys more than ANYTHING in this world and I hate to see him suffer. I want to lay next to him and just make him feel better. This is such a draining experience for Aaron and I. He drove down here from the bay, and we have been switching off watching babies. I will stay the night in the hospital with Dylan and then will hang out with Brayden during the day. I have realized that Aaron and I are fighting this battle alone. I do not like to ask for help, and I feel that we only have each other to lean on. I haven't slept in like 5 days and it is taking a toll on me. I just need some rest....physically and emotionally. I went to Urgent care today and the doc prescribed a Z-pack so hopefully it helps. Cherish everyday with the ones you love! You never know when your world is going to be turned upside down! Be thankful every day for the ones you love most.

Mayonnaise Jar & Two Beers...

I got this sent to me and considering all the struggles Aaron and I are going through right now, it totally made me feel better and motivated me to go forward and strive for excellence! Just wanted to share....

Mayonnaise Jar & Two Beers...

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar w as full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls..

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed..

'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Spend time with your children.

Spend time with your parents.

Visit with grandparents.

Enjoy your 20 friendships.

Take time to get medical checkups.

Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.

The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'

The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.