Oh Father's Day.....

For those of you who know me, you know that my Dad passed away in August of 2008 and we weren't on the best of terms. It is something that I think about often, and feelings of bitterness, sadness, and happiness consume my brain. I have very mixed emotions. The Downs's are known for being very opinionated, very prideful people, and being blatantly honest (which isn't and wasn't always a good thing)! You either love us or you hate us and it was to a point where my Dad and I were involved in a love-hate relationship with each other. I always think about him and miss him the most during baseball season. Watching baseball together was OUR thing...he wished I was a boy from day 1, so he naturally attempted to raise me as a "Tom-Boy!" I love the game of baseball and have always been a true Giants fan! I know that if he were here today, we would be watching all the games together. He would love the fact that my boys LOVE baseball and that they aren't even 2 years old! A few days ago, I got a package in the mail. It was from my Grandma Peggy, (My Dad's Mom). In it was a cassette tape that said: George to Brittany Started 9/20/85 and was written in my Dad's handwriting. Apparently it is a tape that my Dad had made for me, and I have never heard any of it. I don't have a cassette player, so until I get my hands on one, the contents of the tape will remain a mystery. I am sure when the time comes for me to listen to it, it will be pretty emotional stuff. Today is a bad day for me all around. I am sicker than a Dog, My husband is out of town, and I miss my Dad...I feel stuck in this town that will never feel like home to me. I yearn for the day when I can take my family to experience what it was like to grow up where I did and to be around my family and friends. Soon enough....just gotta keep pressing forward and work towards our goal. Hope you enjoy some of the pics =/