My long lost blog!

I haven't blogged in months! Being a Mom has changed my life drastically and I seem to always be doing "Mommy stuff!" But I truly miss my blog. After a post I usually feel so relieved and a little less stressed knowing that I got my thoughts out. Today I got a brand new Mac Book Pro, so hopefully having a "mobile" computer, I can be more in touch with the online world!!! So much to update everyone on! Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas =)

Lolli Cakes!!

Our Halloween Lolli Cake basket!


This is our Halloween basket for $45...seems reasonable to me!!


Financially we are in a whole. Aaron works his booty off and in the end, our bills are barely covered. If I went to work we would spend over $1500 a month in child care because twins are expensive!! I am a full time Mom and part time student that doesn't get a pay check. My buddy Katrina and I have partnered up and have began making Lolli Cakes! It is a new adventure for us and I hope we do well. In less than 24 hours we got 4 orders! I am so happy and hope that our business takes off! If not, at least we have a new hobby!

I know I have been Missing

My boys keep me so busy. People who have "to work" outside the home have a misconception about those who "get to stay home" to take care of their kids. I honestly think my days were way less busy being at a job outside of the home than they are now. I am blessed beyond measure to have a husband who provides enough for me to be able to stay home with my kiddos. But let me tell you, IT IS WORK! Tonight I go back to school at a program through San Francisco State University that caters to those who have full time commitments such as family or work during the day. I have my Associate of Arts degree in General Education and my goal is to obtain a Bachelor's Degree in Child and Adolescent Development with a concentration in Youth and Family Services. I am going to go every Monday from 4-10! I am eager to go but sad to leave my kiddos! But I know my awesome hubby will rock it out!

QUITTER

I just realized last week that I am the biggest Quitter I know. I give up on everything that gets challenging for me. I have always tried to portray myself as the girl who finishes what she starts but that is such a lie! I think I started to realize this last week at the gym. I felt fat and gross after not going to the gym for a few weeks and was adamant that when Aaron got home from work, we were going to go. I jumped on the elliptical machine and started going hard! Usually the only thing I focus on is the time. No matter how much of the workout I have left to do, I always stop between 15 and 20 minutes. 15-20 minutes...what the heck..that is NOTHING! So I started one of the little workout programs they have on the machine and I finished it. It made me feel so good and I felt like I had the best workout ever. I gave it 100% and it truly made me feel good after wards. A few weeks ago I tried out this bootcamp class at the gym. I wanted to do something that would help me drop the pounds fast! Of course I KNEW it was going to be hard...hello, its called BOOTCAMP! So I am halfway through the class and as we are doing laps around the gym I make a b-line for the door and leave. What the heck? I just quit because it was hard. I feel like I quit at more than just exercising in my life but this revelation I had on the elliptical made me realize I need to toughen up and stick it out. I don't want to have my kids mimic me and turn into quitters too! So this week I am going to put 100% effort into anything and everything I attempt! Wish me luck bloggers!

My little fishies!

While visiting my Fam in Fresno I wanted to take my boys swimming for the first time. I learned to swim at 6 months by going to the prestigious Jan Tomas Swim School. I fear that my kids will be the 6 year old sitting on the step with floaties on while the rest of the kids are swimming away! So I want to get them used to the water now! Brayden was a champ...he liked it from the get go! Dylan was a different story! He screamed bloody murder until we came up with the idea to give him a nice drink! =)

LAGGING...big time!

So I had this huge goal to start eating right and to lose a bunch of weight...It all started fine and then just kind of ended...I feel like my goal is sooo far away that I just get discouraged and want to give up. The hardest part about it, is that I LOVE food and I mean LOVE it! Food is everywhere and it is such a temptation. Last night we took all of our boys to the San Mateo fair...there I consumed one Jumbo corn dog, shared a big thing of nachos with my hubby, and then got a cinnamon roll to go...WTH! My husband went to GNC last week and spent 70 bucks on a weight gainer/creatine supplement. Really? You have to pay to gain weight!! It sucks that he is trying to pack on the pounds when I am trying to shed them. Nutritionists tell him to eat more and me to eat less! So much more work being that we are shooting for two different outcomes! I just need to get back on track ASAP!

My reasons

Dylan

Brayden



They make my heart melt each and every day! Thank you GOD for these AMAZING babies!

Oh the journey...

I have been attempting to loose weight for 18 days now. I am still not confident enough to tell what my starting weight was, but I can say that I have lost 6 pounds. Although I have had a few slip ups with food (a late night trip to Mickey D's and a big ol' cheeseburger from Hooters)...I have done fairly well. I have been lagging big time on the exercise but tonight we went and signed up for the prestigious YMCA in our town...around here it is called the "Y" because it is quite snobby!! I am motivated to work out there because I don't know anyone so I will not feel uncomfortable at all! I am so happy because the daycare is included in our monthly rate. The classes look amazing and I am so excited to try them out!! I am going to keep pushing forward until I feel satisfied. Thanks for the encouragement!!

Oh how I want this!

My next book purchase will be this book. I saw it in the window at Berean, the Christian bookstore and I want it! Have any of you heard of it?

Life Change-Day 5

Well the past few days I have been out of town in Fresno visiting my family. I will tell you one thing. Having twins makes this "life Change" a very difficult task. I really cannot believe how hard it is to stay on track simply because I have two children. As some of you may know, having twins is no easy task. I can't just run to the grocery store or run to the bank. It takes about 10 minutes to put my HUGE limo double stroller together. It takes about 5 minutes per baby to take out of his car seat and snap him into the stroller. So when I was out of town staying at my Mom's house that contained ZERO and I mean ZERO foods that have any form of nutritional value...I found it hard to eat right. This led me to a breakdown. All I wanted was a freakin Subway sandwich. But I had two sleeping babies and I wasn't about to leave them in the car in the 90 degree heat...I was FORCED to go through the stupid Taco Bell drive through and get a quesadilla. I was seriously pissed. Then it set me off on the fact that healthy restaurants don't have drive throughs. What about the Mom whose husband works, who has 2 babies and is out and about? What about that consumer? I was really frustrated that I ate fast food... that let to my crying fest. Other than that, I am staying on track and am eating healthy. Still need to kick up my cardio though! Thanks for reading guys!

Day 2 of Life Change

In my previous post I titled it "Day 1 of Diet"...I have decided that I am not on a diet. I am on a path to change my life!! The menu of Day two was:
Breakfast: 2 eggwhites with red and orange bell peppers
Lunch: 6inch Turkey Sand. on Wheat. Tons of lettuce,bellpeppers, cucumbers, and olives. (Subway)
Dinner: Eating Right Lasagna with Minestrone soup and salad.

Need to kick up the exercising!

Day 1 of diet

May 1st was the first day of my diet. I have discovered that this is going to be really complicated considering that I am a mother of twins and a step Mom to a 6 year old! Saturday was difficult because I had my friend Tina staying with us from out of town. Although she supported my diet, she was the first one to order chocolate cookies, cheeseburgers, and scarf down candy in my presence! We had to have all 3 boys up, bathed, fed, dressed, and out the door by 8:30am (not including ourselves!) So breakfast for me was a Fiberone bar. Lunch was a skewer of grilled chicken and veggies over a bed of lettuce with cilantro lime dressing. Dinner was a tostada salad with chicken, black beans, tons of lettuce, and fresh avocado. I wanted to eat the shell so bad and desperately wanted the chips and salsa that came with! But I refused! I was proud of my healthy choices that day! Although we didn't make it to a gym, Tina and I walked a good 5 miles. I was sooo tired...we ended the day with a mani/pedi! I hope I can kick up the exercise!

Time to change my life!!

On May 1, 2010 I am setting out on a challenging adventure. I am overweight (not just because I had twins 5 months ago) but because I have always been overweight. I want to be confident and proud of the way I look. Just hearing my husband say that he thinks I am beautiful is not enough. I want to feel it myself! Yes I will admit, I want people to stare and say, "Dang, she looks good!" I want to be healthy for my family. I was not raised in a household where healthy eating or exercise was important at all. Seeing how chunky my kids are at 5 months makes me want to gain the knowledge I need to teach them how to live a healthy life. I am nervous about this adventure. I am so scared. I want to be able to just set a goal, and achieve it, but I am no fool. I know there are going to be hard days and I am going to fail...well not fail...maybe back track is a better word. I know that I am going to give it all I got and I hope that I will have people around me to hold me accountable and keep motivating me to keep on trucking!! So I am going to post a before picture of how I look now. In one month I will post another one and update everyone on my stats. It scares me to give people truthful facts about my body...but I think that if I put it out there, it will motivate me to get the numbers down! I will blog about the challenges I face and my feelings of the entire event! Please keep me in your prayers guys! I am ready to change my life!

My fatties-4 months old!

Moments like this are priceless! I love my beans!

Baby Dedication

On April 10, 2010 my hubby and I had our boys dedicated. Everyone always asks what that is and it basically is a ceremony that holds my hubs and I accountable for raising our kids in a Godly way. (That is the very short version of it). We had carefully chose two families to be Godparents. Each would serve different meanings. We chose Scott & Mish (Scott is my cousin and Mish is his wife and my BFF) and then we chose Aaron's sister Crystal and her hubby Cameron. We could not have chose better people to support us in this journey. Both couples give us so much guidance and we are super confident that they will support our kids. After the dedication we had a ton of people over to celebrate. Our good friend Heather made two AMAZING cakes for us. Not only were they decorated to the tee, they were sooo tasty! Dylan's was Dulce de Leche and Brayden's was Berry! Get it....D gets D and B gets B??!! =) My mama made some AMAZING rigatoni with italian sausage too! So many people chipped in to help make the party a success. Thank you to everyone who helped out!

My two studs

Dylan saying his nightly prayer!

Brayden in his new Baby Einstein Jumper!

Sweet Dylan



At their Grandpa's retirement party

Dilly Willy!

Sweet Brayden Boy!


I know that every parent thinks their kids are the cutest....but I really really think my boys are the best thing ever! Each and every day they learn something new. Brayden is so fascinated with his right hand and laughs hysterically when his Dad yells, "Pizza, Pizza, Pizza!" Dylan laughs all the time and gets a huge smile when we make eye contact. He laughs every time he sees his brother crying! I can only imagine how they are going to be in a few more months! I am sad because both boys are probably going to have to wear a helmet because they have deformed skulls. The doctor said at their 6 month check up they are going to be reevaluated. Please keep my little lovies in your prayers!

I am in love

These are the moments I live for...

Babies 1st Easter

Well my boys are growing fast and they melt my heart each and every day! Easter Sunday was a great day! We went to Church and heard a great message. We went to hang with some fam and later had some friends over. Pretty low key and thats how we like it! I love that we had all 3 boys and that the Easter Bunny came! Like always he hid the baskets in the backyard! Big brother Christian had to help his little bros out and gather their baskets! Life is good!