Oh reality!

I have worked for as long as I can remember. Everday I would go to work and think about how great it would be to just stay at home all day. I imagined what my house would look like if I stayed home. I pictured all the dishes clean and put away, organized cupboards, floors you could eat off of, and all laundry folded and in its proper place. That is SOOO not what my house looks like right now. I am quite disappointed with myself. I stopped working April 9 and still, my house is not maintained. I am 4.5 months pregnant and soon these babies will be here. Do I really think that when they get here I am going to have the time to maintain the house the way I used to invision? I rarely have a meal cooked for my husband after her gets home from a long day at work and when I was working I would cook almost every single night! I just have absolutely no desire to get up and really do it!! I know I am on bed rest pretty much but still...you can organize while you are on bed rest. Its like one side of my brain is arguing with the side that actually wants me to get up and DO IT while the other side that wants me to just sit around and be lazy is clearly winning! Any advice or motivation for me to WANT to get up and move?

I love Weddings!

On Saturday we went to my friend Melissa's wedding in Santa Clara, CA. We had a really nice time. Her wedding blew ours out of the water! It was like 1/2 the price of our wedding and the customer service level that the venue bestowed upon the guests as well as the wedding party was AMAZING! Our wedding lacked customer service and I am happy that Mely and Brian didn't have the same problem on their big day! A cute touch was that they delivered "Sweet treats" to each table! The sweet treat was a chocolate covered strawberry! It was just such a cute touch! Aaron and I cannot wait to renew our vows on our 5th wedding anniversary and actually have a decent re-do wedding! We had a great time with good friends! Thanks Mely and Brian for making us a part of your special day!

5 years since you left us...

5 years ago today, my dearest and best friend went to be with our maker. I miss her everyday. I think about what life would be like with her still in the flesh. She made me smile. She made me laugh. I want to tell her I am pregnant! I want to lay in bed with her in our pj's and watch Sopranos and Sex and The City like we used to. I just really miss her and wish she was here with me. I hate remember this day 5 years ago. I hate reliving that feeling I got when I recieved the terrible phone call telling me what had happened. I won't ever forget any of it and I want to so badly. I miss having friends like her. I love you JLR and I miss you more than you could ever imagine!

Jessica Romag, 20 POWAY - Jessica Leigh Romag, 20, died Saturday, July 17, 2004, in Monterey County of injuries she received in an automobile accident.Born Aug. 23, 1983, in Englewood, Colo., she lived in Poway for 15 years. She was a summer intern for Merrill Lynch.She was a senior at Cal Poly San Luis Obispo. She graduated from Poway High School in 2001, where she was active in ASB and athletics. She was a member of Cal Poly Alpha Phi Sorority and was executive treasurer of the Panhellenic Board.Miss Romag is survived by her parents, Michael and Mary Romag of Poway; brothers Matthew Romag, David Romag and Brian Romag, all of Poway; grandparents Arnold Rayome of Port Edwards, Wis., and Paul and Doris Romag of Wisconsin Rapids, Wis.; great-grandmothers Marie Romag and Martha Kauth, both of Wisconsin Rapids; and numerous aunts, uncles and cousins.Viewing is scheduled from 5 to 8 p.m. and prayer service at 7 p.m. today, July 22, at St. Gabriel's Catholic Church, 13734 Twin Peaks Road in Poway.A Mass will be celebrated at noon Friday, July 23, at St. Gabriel's Catholic Church with the Rev. Michael Froidurot officiating. Interment will be at Dearborn Memorial Park, 14361 Tierra Bonita Road in Poway.The family suggests donations to St. Gabriel's Building Fund, In Memory of Jessica Romag, 13734 Twin Peaks Road, Poway, CA 92064, or the Jessica Romag Trust Fund, Mission Federal Credit Union, 13465 Poway Road, Poway, CA 92064.California Funeral Alternatives in Escondido is handling arrangements

The fun part!

Now that we know we are for sure having identical twin boys, my hubby and I set out to do the fun part of the whole pregnancy thing! REGISTER!!! =) We had a ton of fun but were a bit overwhelmed. I realized that baby stuff is super expensive and the fact that we will most likely need 2 of a lot of items, kinda stressed us out!!! We first registered at http://www.babiesrus.com/ and then http://www.lullabylane.com/ I am nervous because a lot of our stuff is only available online! Check out our registries and give us feedback! We aren't too sure on what's good and what's bad!

Frustrations

As some of you may know, I am having a "high risk" pregnancy. There seems to be one road bump after the next, and to be honest, I am ok with it. I have no expectations for this pregnancy, just high hopes. I have learned in life that if you have no expectations you will not be disappointed. So many people keep going on and on about "how" I should be acting and how I am going to "jinx" myself by having the outlook I do. I really am sick of it all. I do not want to hear peoples negative opinion. I have faith that God is going to take care of everything and all I need to do is have faith in him...whew, I really needed to vent!

4th of July

I am so excited that tonight my hubs and I are driving to Clovis to hang out there for the 4th! I always loved 4th of July back home because we always have had a huge block party! This 4th of July we are planning on going to my sister's house for a big pool party! Every 4th of July I make this yummy flag cake! It is on of my favorite desserts because it isn't too sweet and it is patriotic! What does your family do for the 4th?